Henry lifted Shirley into the cockpit of the mecha. For the first time, he experienced a desire so fierce it bordered on losing control.
His hand slid to her waist, where the once-neat uniform now hung loosely, the neckline slipping to reveal the faint curve of her collarbone.
Earlier that afternoon, Shirley had regained her memory. With it came the return of her former awareness and dissatisfaction with her current figure.
Now, as Henryโs hand moved with increasing boldness and intent, she caught his wrist. โToo fast,โ she said calmly.
Henry paused, his Adamโs apple bobbing as he looked up. He wanted to respect Vivianusโ wishes, but restraint was proving difficult.
Holding her close, he murmured, โThen help me.โ His voice was low, almost pleading. โI can help you too.โ
Shirley didnโt refuse. โFine. But not so close.โ
He shifted back slightly.
She reached for his collar with one hand, the other wandering lower. Her lips curved into a teasing smile. โHenry, are you sure you used to beโฆ frigid?โ
Henry stiffened. โI just realized Iโm not.โ
But perhaps because it was his first time in such a situation, his body wasnโt fully responsive, overwhelmed by unfamiliar sensations. The moment became slightly awkward.
Shirley arched an eyebrow, her grin deepening. โNot a great showing, Henry.โ
A flush crept up his neck. Embarrassed and a bit flustered by her expression, he narrowed his eyes and kissed her again, harder this time.
At least, he thought, he could feel something. That alone was a small victory.
Still, the speed of it all left him somewhat abashed as a man.
Thankfully, after a deep, heated kiss, he seemed to recover.
It was, at least, enough to salvage a bit of pride.
Inside the mecha, Shirley wiped her hands clean.
Henry slid his arms around her from behind, his voice rough with exhaustion. โSure you donโt want my help?โ
Shirley hesitated. She was debating whether to tell him the truth. If she kept it from him now, it might hurt more later. After all, sheโd already concealed enough.
And Henry, after all his inner conflict, had still chosen to stay, even when he thought she was a man. He had confessed his feelings without reservation.
After a moment, Shirley replied, โIf itโs the same kind of help as before, probably not.โ
โThen Iโll just lie back. You can do whatever you want,โ he offered, half-serious.
Shirley had already finished wiping her hands. She smiled. โStill wonโt work.โ
โWhy not?โ Henry asked, genuinely puzzled.
She took his hand and guided it downward.
Henryโs expression shifted. Something about what he didnโt feel struck him.
He thought, โWaitโฆ Vivianus doesnโt have a penis! Did he lose it in an accident?โ
But then Henry said lightly, โItโs fine. Doesnโt matter. Iโm basically asexual anyway. Kissingโs enough. We can beโฆ platonic.โ
Shirley couldnโt help laughing. โHenry, Iโm a woman.โ
She laid it out plainly. โBut, I still get to be on top.โ
Henry was stunned. He had just mentally prepared himself for a same-sex relationship and even convinced himself he was ready. And then she dropped that on him.
For a moment, his thoughts went blank. And yet, a small part of him was relieved.
He looked at her, exasperated and amused. โSo youโve been lying to me all along.โ
He honestly wanted to give her a piece of his mind. But no matter how irritated he was, it wasnโt enough to make him walk away.
Now that he knew she was a woman, he felt a little foolish. How had he not noticed all this time?
Shirley explained, โI didnโt mean to hide it. After I lost my memory, I wasnโt sure who I was anymore. Later, when the person treating me spent a fortune on my recovery, I pretended to be a man, to pay the debt.โ
โYouโve regained your memory now?โ
She nodded. โYes, most of it.โ
โThatโs good,โ Henry said. He didnโt ask about her past identity, though he had his suspicions.
Shirley didnโt offer more. Instead, she asked, โYouโre not angry?โ
โOf course Iโm angry,โ he said bluntly.
After all, he had wrestled with himself for a long time.
Still, he had no intention of holding it against her. There were other ways to get back at her, for example, her claim about being on top.
He decided he would agree to it. In words, at least. After all, in reality, there was only one person whoโd be taking the lead, and that was him.
Henry took her hand, giving it a light squeeze. โItโs not a big deal. Not something worth fighting over.โ
Shirley studied him for a moment, then said calmly, โThen what if I told youโฆ Iโm Shirley. The real one.โ
He didnโt flinch. His expression remained steady, eyes fixed on hers.
He had suspected it, perhaps even known it. But hearing her confirm it still carried weight.
His hand tightened slightly around hers. โIโm sorry. I shouldโve been there, when it all happened.โ
โYou donโt need to apologize,โ Shirley said gently. โIf it werenโt for what happened, you might never have fallen for me, as the queen.โ
Back then, wearing the crown meant carrying constant restraint. Sheโd rarely let down her guard, except in front of Shermaine. Only then could she drop the formalities and be herself.
Even now, with her memories returned, she found she preferred this version of herself, unburdened and unguarded.
And she believed she could stay that way.
Henry shook his head. โIf I could fall for you when you were in disguise, why wouldnโt I love you as you truly are? Maybe it wouldnโt have happened as fast, but it wouldโve happened.โ
From the start, heโd been drawn to her. That part had never changed.
He leaned in and brushed her lips with his. โIโm glad it was you I met on the battlefield.โ
He liked this version of Shirley, honest, self-assured, and unguarded. And he hoped sheโd stay that way with him.
Shirley smiled, something soft in her eyes. โI didnโt think Iโd fall for you. But after spending time with youโฆ you got under my skin.โ
Their feelings had always been moving toward the same point.
Henry let out a quiet laugh. โSo before the memory loss, you were already planning to come after me?โ
She nodded. โI was.โ
His grin widened. โThatโs why you gave me those sapphire cufflinks?โ
She nodded again. The gift hadnโt been casual. They both knew that.
Henry kissed her again, this time with more intensity. Normally reserved, he burned with quiet fire once emotion took hold.
The night deepened, wind stirring through the edges of the training field.
Unseen, a shadow moved in the distance, silent and watchful.
It was Edison. He had followed.
And now, the truth lay before him. The supposed stand-in for Shirley was, in fact, Shirley herself.