"Yeahโฆ" Jamison answered, his voice taut and weary.
Ivyโs gaze lingered on his injured hand, her mind replaying the events of the night; tremors of fear still rippled through her chest.
Now, she couldnโt help but feel a wave of guilt and self-reproach.
Thinking back, if she had never returnedโif sheโd stayed locked away in that pigsty deep in the mountainsโthen Micah and Emma would likely have married by now, maybe even had a child.
But because she came back, directly or indirectly, two young lives were lost.
If Farley Shepherd didnโt make it through the night, that would make three.
Sheโd always believed that โI did not kill Boren, but Boren died because of meโโand for the first time, Ivy questioned whether her path of revenge was truly the right one.
All sheโd wanted was for Emma to face the consequences she deservedโsheโd never meant for anyone to die.
But with such a horrifying price paid, even her search for justice felt stained with blood and guilt.
Usually so clear-headed, always knowing exactly what she wanted, Ivy found herself lost for the first time.
By the time Jamison finished bandaging his hand, Micahโs body had been taken away by the funeral home.
When his brother approached, Thad instructed, โYour handโs injured. Go home and get some rest. Iโll head over to the station and see whatโs happening. Iโll handle the arrangements for Micah. Please keep an eye on Mom and Dad. Thereโs no way we can keep this news from them for long, and Iโm worried they wonโt be able to take it.โ
โYeah. Weโll just have to take it one step at a time,โ Jamison replied quietly.
With their tasks divided, Thad and Davina left the hospital.
Worried their parents might catch wind of what happened, Jamison decided to spend the night at the hospital.
โIvy, itโs already midnight. Iโll have one of the drivers pick you upโyou should go home and get some sleep.โ
โNo need. Iโll stay here with you,โ Ivy said without hesitation.
She still hadnโt fully recovered from the shock. The image of Carla wielding that knife haunted her. Her heart clenched every time she remembered it.
Besides, Jamisonโs hand was hurt. If his parents did hear the news in the middle of the night and something happened, he wouldnโt be in any shape to help. It was safer for her to stay.
Jamison started to protest, but she cut him off. โIf I go home alone, Iโll just have nightmares.โ
He looked at her, saw the fear in her eyes, and his brow furrowed.
Right. Heโd forgotten about that.
If she went home by herself tonight, sheโd probably lie awake, tormented by her thoughts.
โAlright, then stay here with me.โ
There were empty VIP rooms available anyway.
Jamison quickly arranged for them to stay in the room next to his grandmotherโs. The two of them slipped inside quietly.
But that night, neither of them could truly sleep.
Ivy turned on her side and clung to Jamison, words hovering on her lips, yet she couldnโt quite bring herself to say them.
Jamison, too, lay awake.
Somewhere in the small hours, realizing Ivy was still awake, he whispered, โTry not to think about it. Get some rest. The next few days will be exhaustingโyou need your strength.โ
She was pressed close against him, and as he spoke, she could feel the deep, resonant vibration of his chest. His voice was low and steady, but there was an undercurrent of grief that made her ache with guilt.
After a momentโs silence, she couldnโt help but murmur, โJamisonโฆโ
โYeah?โ
โDo you regret it?โ
He frowned and turned to look at her. โRegret what?โ
Ivy lifted her gaze. In the darkness, she could just make out the outline of his face.
โIf we hadnโt been together, maybe none of this would have happened,โ she said, her voice thick with remorse.
โDonโt say that,โ he replied quietly but firmly. โNone of this is because of us.โ
โMaybeโฆ I should never have come back. I could have gone anywhereโjust disappeared.โ
If she hadnโt returned, maybe fate wouldnโt have claimed Emma and Micah.
She wasnโt a saint, but having two lives on her conscience was almost too much to bear.
Hearing her blame herself, Jamison turned to face her, meeting her eyes in the dim light.
โIvy, listen to me. What happened to Micah and Emmaโit wasnโt your fault. We all make choices, and weโre responsible for the consequences. If you really want to trace this back, you were the first, and the most innocent, victim in all of this. The restโฆ well, they brought it on themselves, one way or another.โ
He spoke gently but seriously, afraid that if she let the guilt consume her, sheโd do something drastic.
Like leave him.
Ivy sighed. โI know youโre right. I do. But that doesnโt change what happened. Two people are deadโฆโ
Maybe three.
โI mourn their loss too,โ Jamison said softly, โbut in the end, they made their own choices.โ He reached out and stroked her hair, soothing her. โTry to sleep. Youโre still recovering. Donโt wear yourself out worrying about everyone else.โ
Ivy closed her eyes, forcing her thoughts to quiet.
But just as the room settled into silence, Jamisonโs phone rang again.
The shrill ring sliced through the night, making Ivyโs heart skip a beat and her mind snap back to full alertness.