Ivy drew a long, shaky breath and murmured in a daze, โYes. I canโt forget. No matter how hard I try to push it out of my mind during the day, it always finds me at night, even in my dreams.โ
Deep down, she still felt grateful to Silly. Technically, his family had been the buyers, but he himself had never meant any harmโeverything had been orchestrated by his father. If anything, he bore even less blame than Emma.
Sometimes Ivy thought, if she ever managed to truly move beyond those memories, sheโd like to go back to that place just to thank Silly. But at this point, she simply couldnโt find the courage.
Jamison noticed the sorrow etched across her face, the emptiness in her eyes. He frowned, concern coloring his voice. โWill you be okay by yourself tonight? Iโm guessing those nightmares will come again.โ
Ivy wiped her tears away, trying to compose herself. โIโll be fine. Honestly, saying it out loud helped. It doesnโt feel quite so heavy anymore.โ
He nodded. โI get it. But reliving all that must be painful. Maybe itโs better if you donโt talk about it again.โ
โYeah,โ she agreed softly.
They held each other quietly for a while, until Ivy finally remembered how late it was and that she should head upstairs.
Jamison followed her out of the car. โIโll stay with you tonight.โ
โThatโs not necessary-โ
โIt is.โ He popped open the trunk and grabbed his overnight bag, giving her a look. โItโs not like itโs my first time here. The guest bedโs still made, right?โ
Ivy just looked at him, at a loss for words, and let him come upstairs with her.
Of course, dredging up the past took its tollโshe couldnโt sleep at all that night. But she didnโt dare let Jamison know; she was afraid heโd insist on staying by her side, which would only make her more tense, more uneasy.
Thank goodness she always kept sleeping pills in her nightstand. When insomnia dragged her into the early hoursโthree a.m.โshe swallowed two pills and finally drifted into a deep, oblivious sleep. The next morning, she slept in far later than usual.
Jamison, on the other hand, was up early. He peeked into her bedroom, saw her sound asleep, and quietly closed the door.
Downstairs, he started pondering breakfast. The trouble was, for all his intelligence and competence in every other arena, he was hopeless in the kitchen.
Ivy didnโt wake until nine. As she made her way downstairs, the unmistakable smell of something burning hit her halfway down.
โWhat are you doing?โ she called, stopping in the doorway to the kitchen.
Jamison was in the middle of dumping yet another failed pancake into the trash. He jumped at the sound of her voice, then turned around sheepishly. โYouโre up?โ
โWere you trying to make breakfast?โ she asked, surprised.
โYeah, but it didnโt exactly work out.โ He gave her an embarrassed grin.
โI could smell it from upstairsโI thought the house was on fire for a second.โ
Jamison had no comeback for that; he just looked helpless.
A strange silence settled over them until Jamison finally gave up on his culinary ambitions. He walked over and said, โForget it, letโs just go out for breakfast. Afterward, Iโll take you to my place. Weโre getting married, after allโyou should probably know where I live.โ
Ivy didnโt object. He had a point. If they were going to get married, it was time they got to know each other better. Heโd stayed over at her place twice already, but sheโd never even seen his home.
They drove out to a nearby cafรฉ, filled up on breakfast, and then headed straight for Jamisonโs apartment near the hospital.
The โapartmentโ Ivy had pictured was nothing like what she actually found. The place was massiveโluxurious, sprawling, far beyond anything sheโd imagined.
She wandered through the spacious rooms in disbelief. โYouโre sure this is just an apartment for one?โ
Jamison handed her a glass of water, smiling. โI bought three adjacent units and renovated them into one.โ
Well, that explained it. Ivy shook her head, amazed. The things rich people do to treat themselves.