Ivy stared at him, uncertain. She had always known that, sooner or later, Jamison would ask about the past โ about those years sheโd tried so hard to bury. Sheโd played out this conversation in her mind, imagined how she might tell him, wondered if heโd ever really believe her.
Sensing her hesitation, Jamison hurried to explain himself, worried sheโd misunderstood. โIโm justโฆ confused, thatโs all. I want to understand what you went through, so I can help you move past it โ so I know how to really be there for you.โ
Maybe it was the gentle concern in his eyes, or the way his voice softened when he spoke, but Ivy felt her anxiety slowly begin to settle. After a momentโs pause, she decided to open up to him โ to lay the truth bare.
โItโs a long story,โ she began quietly. โBack then, the family who bought meโฆ they only had one son. Everyone in the village called him Silly. At first, I thought he really was slow, but later I learned that, mentally, he was fine. He just had cerebral palsy โ his features were twisted, his body moved strangely, so people assumed he was simple.โ
โSilly had gone to school. He once told me he was actually a pretty good student, but no one โ neither the villagers nor his teachers โ believed someone like him could ever make it in the world. They thought heโd never find work, no matter how much he studied. So after he finished middle school, his parents made him quit. They needed him at home, tending the sheep, feeding the pigs.โ
โHis father was a drunk โ a mean one, too. Whenever he got wasted, heโd beat Sillyโs mother. I found out later sheโd been bought, too. Theyโd hoped for a healthy son, but when Silly was born, his father took out all his anger on her. Years of beatings, years of misery. Silly knew it was wrong โ heโd read enough to understand that much โ but his body was so frail he could barely walk straight, let alone protect his mother.โ
โAfter they bought me, Sillyโs father was desperate for a grandchild. He kept pressuring Silly, but Silly always refused. Once, it got so bad that Sillyโs father brought a few of the local men to the house, tried to force usโโ
Up to this point, Ivyโs voice was flat, almost detached, as if telling a story that belonged to someone else. But Jamisonโs heart broke for her. He sat up, pulling her tightly into his arms.
When she reached the part about nearly being assaulted, the blankness on her face finally cracked; her eyes grew wide and tense, her whole body rigid.
Jamisonโs jaw clenched. He instantly regretted pushing her, and hurried to stop her. โNo, thatโs enough. You donโt have to say any more. I donโt need to know the details. Whatever happened, Iโm here for you. We have all the time in the world โ Iโll help you heal, no matter how long it takes.โ
He held her so tightly it was as if he could shield her from every nightmare. The warmth of his embrace seeped into her bones, wrapping itself around the cold, wounded places in her heart. For the first time in years, she felt the faintest flicker of courage.
But she shook her head. โSince Iโve started, I want to finish.โ She met his eyes, steadying herself before she went on.
โThat day, they nearly tore all my clothes off. They dragged Silly in, tried to force him onto me. He was small, thin, never dared talk back to his fatherโฆ but suddenly he snapped. He went wild โ biting, throwing rocks, fighting like someone possessed. I fought just as desperately. By the end, weโd smashed a whole section of the pigsty wall. After that, the men gave up, and nothing happened.โ
Jamison swallowed hard, his eyes burning with unshed tears. He looked at her, saw the few silent tears streaming down her face, and gently brushed them away.
โI understand,โ he whispered. โI promise, Iโll never pressure you. Take all the time you need โ even if it takes a lifetime.โ
โIโm not finished yet.โ Ivy steadied her breath, pushing forward. โThat first year, things like that happened often. Every time, Silly risked everything to protect me. Once, he even smashed his head against a millstone trying to fight them off โ there was blood everywhereโฆโ