My chest hurt so badly it felt like I couldnโt breathe. My heart was pounding, and my eyes burned with tears I didnโt want to let fall. Levi looked so weak, his breathing shallow, and I felt like the world was slipping out of my hands.
She turned her gaze on me. โCan you do that now?โ she asked gently, her meaning clearโmy drunkenness.
My heart stopped. My mind spun.
Lennoxโs POV
I swallowed hard, running a tired hand over my face. โLet me take a bath first,โ I murmured, my voice low but steady. โI need to clear my head before we do this.โ
โNext timeโฆโ I muttered, glancing between them, โdonโt trick me like this. Find another way.โ
The words hit me like a knife. My wolf growled inside, furious. My teeth clenched, and a growl rumbled from my chest. โDonโt say that!โ I snapped. โDonโt you dare tell me my brother canโt be saved!โ
My breath caught in disbelief, my arms dropping away as the truth hit me. โYouโฆ youโve been deceiving me,โ I whispered, my voice trembling with rage and relief.
I let out a shaky breath, my wolf pacing inside me, not angryโjust exhausted. โIโve always loved you, Levi. You and Louis both. Nothing changes that. I justโฆ wish you hadnโt forced it out of me this way.โ
The bastard had tricked me.
Louis finally spoke, his voice gentle. โWe werenโt trying to hurt you. We just needed to bring you back.โ
โThey love you,โ he murmured, firm. โDonโt push them away.โ
โOlivia canโt heal him,โ Louis said slowly, โdo you really think anyone else can?โ
In my room, I stripped out of my clothes and let the warm water pour over me. Steam curled around my shoulders, heat seeping into my aching muscles. I braced my hands against the tile, letting the water wash away the sweat, the stench of alcohol, the fear that had clawed its way through me.
โI think we need to sit and talk,โ Oliviaโs voice finally broke the silence.
Realization slammed into me like a blade to the chest.
I swallowed hard, my hands flexing uselessly at my sides. โDo you know what it felt likeโthinking I was losing you?โ My voice cracked despite how angry I was at myself, and I shook my head. โI thoughtโฆ I thought my brother was slipping away right in front of me. And I couldnโt stop it.โ
Despite the heat of my anger, the corner of my lips twitched. Just a little.
My chest eased a little when I felt itโLevi was breathing. Slow, steady breaths. Relief flooded me so hard I almost collapsed right there.
No, they tricked me.
He wasnโt sick.
I pressed my hand against Leviโs chest, desperate to feel somethingโanything. My vision blurred again, but I forced the tears back.
I swallowed and nodded.
He was smiling.
โYou love me that much, huh?โ he teased, his voice weak but full of mischief.
The confession tumbled out like water breaking through a dam. โIโve carried you since we were kids, always trying to shield youโฆ but the truth is, youโre the one whoโs kept me alive. You and Louis. Without you, Iโm nothing. Do you hear me? Nothing.โ
Her words sank into me. Sit and talk. She was right. We needed it. But the thought of sitting here nowโreeking of alcohol still clinging to me, my head pounding, my emotions hanging by a threadโit felt impossible.
Leviโs teasing expression vanished completely. He reached for my arm. โIโm sorry, I really am. But I had to see it, Lennoxโฆ had to hear it. That you still cared. That you still loved me, even after everything.โ
And thenโ
By the time I stepped out and pulled on fresh clothes, my head felt lighter, clearer. The storm inside had dulled. I was back to my sanity.
โYouโฆ you were faking?โ My voice came out quieter, pained. I looked between Levi and Louis, my throat burning.
My whole chest felt tight, like I couldnโt breathe. Relief and betrayal tangled inside me until I didnโt know which one was stronger.
I spun toward Louis, my voice breaking. โCall the healer!โ I shouted, panic shaking through me.
โIโm ready,โ I said quietly, meeting her eyes. โLetโs talk.โ
A sound.
I didnโt trust myself to answer with words. Instead, I rose to my feet, my steps heavy and sluggish as I turned toward the door. The silence behind me was thick, but no one stopped me.
I rubbed a hand over my face, sighing deeply. The raw ache in my chest was still there, but the anger had drained out of me. In its place was just wearinessโand, reluctantly, a flicker of gratitude that Levi wasnโt in danger.
A low, soft chuckle.
Leviโs smirk disappeared, his eyes softening. โWe had to, Lennox. You werenโt listening to us. You were tearing yourself apart. We didnโt know what else to do.โ
When I returned to Leviโs room, they were all still there. Louis leaned against the wall, arms crossed, his eyes on me the moment I stepped inside. Olivia sat close to Levi, her hand resting lightly on his arm, her gaze lifting as I entered.
But Louis didnโt move. His face stayed calm, too calm.
Levi chuckled softly, but there was no arrogance in it nowโonly warmth. โNoted, big brother.โ
I wrapped my arms around him tightly, hugging him as if letting go would make him vanish. My wolf calmed just a little, soothed by the sound of his breathing under my cheek.
He wasnโt fainted.
I bent closer, pressing my forehead to his shoulder. โLeviโฆโ my voice cracked, โDonโt ever scare me like this again. You hear me? I love you, brother. I love you so damn much. You drive me crazy sometimes, but I wouldnโt trade you for anything. Not in this life, not in the next.โ
Oliviaโs gaze lingered on me, worried and concerned as if she was weighing whether or not to push. Finally, she gave a small nod. โAlright. But donโt take too long.โ
I froze. Slowly, I lifted my head. Leviโs lips were curved into a small, smug smile. His eyes fluttered open just enough to meet mine, and thenโhe chuckled again.
For a long moment, I just stood there, my chest rising and falling, listening to the steady rhythm of the water. My wolf was quieter now, soothed by the cleanse, but not silent.