329 My Decision Damienโs POV
I left the room, and outside I saw Olivia waiting. The moment I saw her, I released a deep sigh and approached her. โThank you for your help,โ I said sincerely.
Because if I let myself go thereโif I let myself be the man who loved her instead of the man sheโd betrayedโthen every decision Iโd already made would shatter. I needed her to understand the weight of what sheโd done. I needed to keep the upper hand, to make sure she knew I wasnโt asking anymore, that I was taking.
โIโll come with you,โ she said, her voice low but unwavering.
Her eyes lifted to mine, and for one heartbeat too long, I let her see itโthe truth I was trying to hide. The love. The longing. The part of me that had never stopped wanting her, even when I should have.
I wanted her with me. Hell, Iโd wanted her with me every day since the moment she left, since the moment I realized sheโd taken not just my son but a part of me I could never get back. And despite the fury boiling in my veins, despite the sting of betrayal and the poison of our familiesโ history, my feelings for her had never changed.
โI thought-โ she began, but I cut her off with a sharp, bitter laugh.
I watched her go, every muscle in my body tense with the effort it took to stay where I was instead of following her in.
โAnd she has a good reason for that,โ Olivia interrupted softly. โYou can want all the rage you want, but you canโt deny the fact that most women would have done what she did.โ
I stared at her, my brows knitting. โShe kept my son from me-โ
I couldnโt.
She looked pale, eyes still red from crying, but there was a steadiness in her that hadnโt been there before. Her gaze flicked briefly to Olivia, then landed on me.
โDamienโฆโ her voice was calm but carried a weight that made me pause, โdonโt be too harsh on her.โ
But I didnโt move.
I tore my gaze away before she could read it all. Before she could use it to get to me.
I watched her, the way her hands trembled against her skirt, the way her lashes clung together from tears. My wolf howled in my chest, wantingโneedingโto close the space between us, to wipe those tears, to pull her against me and bury my face in her hair until the scent of her was burned into me again.
And yet, holding myself back felt like trying to stop myself from breathing. My chest burned with it, my jaw ached from clenching too hard. Every shaky breath she took chipped away at the wall Iโd built, and I hated how badly I wanted to destroy it myself. โThe decision is yours to makeโฆ itโs whether you come with us back to my home, or you come visit him whenever you want,โ I said, my voice a low growl meant to mask everything else inside me. Then I turned my back to her, because if I didnโt, I knew Iโd break my own damn rules.
Her eyes widened as the realization dawned on her that this wasnโt a negotiation. โIโm taking him back home with me, and itโs left for you to decide if you want to come with us or not,โ I spat.
I gave a curt nod, forcing my voice to stay even. โGood. Then pack whatever you need. We leave as soon as the healers clear him for travel.โ
Her tears fell harder, her lips trembling, but it didnโt soothe me. If anything, it fueled my anger.
My hands trembled, not from weakness, but from the force it took to stop myself from putting a hole through the wall. I had just walked out of an operating room, given a part of myself for my son, and instead of relief, all I could taste was the bitterness of the years Iโd lost. I stared at Sofia, every breath like a growl I had to choke back. She stood there, clutching herself like she could hide from the truth, from me. My wolf clawed against my skin, furious and wild.
For a long moment, the room was nothing but the sound of her unsteady breathing and the pounding of my own pulse. My wolf settled slightly, satisfied with the truth laid bare, but my rage was far from gone.
I leaned down slightly, my voice dropping to something cold, something that made her shiver. โYou can hate me. You can fight me. But you will neverโneverโtake him away from me again. If I have to burn down the world to make sure of that, I will.โ
Something in my chest shifted. There was still anger there, but it tangled with something softer. My wolf surged, almost triumphant, and it took everything in me not to show just how much her words meant to me.
But even as the words left my mouth, I knew they were a damn lie.
Her words struck deeper than I wanted to admit. My jaw tightened, but I didnโt argue. She was right, damn it.
โYou thought you knew better than me? You thought you had the right to decide I didnโt exist in his life?โ I stepped closer, close enough that she had to tilt her head back to meet my gaze. โI am his father. And if you think for one damn second Iโm going to step aside and let you keep him from me again, youโre out of your mind.โ
The truth was, theyโd only gotten worse. More consuming.
Before I could reply, the door to the room behind us opened. Footsteps approached, and when I turned, there she wasโmy Sofia.
She swallowed hard, her chin lifting just slightly. โI canโt stay away from him, Damien. I canโtโฆ I wonโt. Heโs my son. If youโre taking him home, Iโm coming too.โ
She nodded but didnโt say a word, but I knew I had a lot to say to her. โIโm sorry for all the things I did to youโฆ I know apologizing will not change the fact that I did terrible things to you, but I just want you to know that I am sorry. I was just a man in love, which resulted in me doing stupid things,โ I apologized sincerely.
Yet Olivia didnโt respond. She just stood there, her eyes steady on mine, as if she was deciding whether my words were worth accepting. Then, finally, she spoke.
She nodded once, then glanced down at the floor, as if gathering herself, before brushing past me to return to our sonโs bedside.
I straightened, my jaw locked. โFrom this moment on,โ I said slowly and deliberately, โheโs with me. I donโt care about your excuses, your fears, or our familyโs damn feud. Heโs mine. And I will be in his lifeโevery day, every secondโwhether you like it or not.โ
For a second, I thought Iโd misheard her. โWhat?โ
Her breath hitched, but she didnโt move away this time. She stood there, rooted, as if my words pinned her in place.
โYou donโt understand what youโve done,โ I said, my voice low but vibrating with barely restrained fury. โYou stole moments I can never get back. His first steps. His first words. The first time he called for his father-โ My voice caught, and I hated myself for it. I swallowed hard, shoving the weakness down. โThose are mine, Sofia. They were mine, and you threw them away.โ