If she disliked her that much, then why had she chosen to give birth to her in the first place?
Watching the scene inside unfold, Aurora found it all painfully ironic. She had never seen anything so bitterly mocking.
So, what did that make her? She was just a little girlโat most, all sheโd ever wanted was a bit of affection. She only wanted to be loved.
That was why sheโd thought, just like on TV, maybe if she made something tasty, her mother would be pleased. But to Grace, all of that had probably looked like a joke. Thinking about it now, Aurora couldnโt help but find it laughable too. She tilted her head back slightly, trying to stop the tears from falling. Even a stranger, the head nurse, had spoken up for her. So, how could her own mother not know?
The truth was simpleโGrace just didnโt care enough. And now that Aurora saw it clearly, it somehow hurt less. These memoriesโshe had been too young to recall them before. But now, after seeing it all, she wished she hadnโt remembered. At least when she was still in the dark, she hadnโt known any better. At least then, it hadnโt hurt like this. Aurora closed her eyes as warm tears slid down her cheeks.
The sensation surprised even her. Sheโd thought she no longer had any tears left to shed over things like this. But now, it seemed like everything was still possible. It wasnโt that she couldnโt cryโshe just hadnโt experienced anything that cut deep enough. With that thought, a bitter smile crept onto Auroraโs lips. Someone like her, caught in the middle of a cruel joke, how could she possibly deserve so much concern?
Maybe this was how it was supposed to beโleaving her alone in the hospital would be enough. She lifted her right hand, staring at the faint scar still visible on her skin. A sharp pain pricked at her heart. She had always believed the scar was her fault, that sheโd simply been too mischievous. But now? That story felt like a jokeโpathetic and silly. She kept walking forward, the images on both sides of the corridor shifting at a steady pace.
After letting her tears fall, she felt a little lighter inside. Maybe sheโd just been too sheltered. She shouldโve known what kind of person her mother truly was, shouldnโt she? Was it really worth breaking down over something like not being accompanied to the hospital? Besides, Grace had never once denied her food, clothing, or shelter. With that thought, Aurora felt a bit better again.
But then she remembered that look in her own eyes when she was littleโgazing enviously at Tessaโs perfect ponytail. Just thinking of that expression made her heart ache all over again. It was like someone had cut a gash into her chest and the wind wouldnโt stop blowing through it. She could feel her heart was bleeding. She saw it againโso many times when she was sick, it had always been her father caring for her alone. And Grace? She was always by Tessaโs side, over and over, until Auroraโs heart began to grow numb.
She told herself she didnโt careโbut maybe that was just because she never had it to begin with. Now, after everything sheโd seen and felt, she could finally be certain of one thing.
Grace didnโt love her. And perhaps, by extension, she didnโt love her father either.