โWhat do you think about this one?โ I asked, pulling Ellaโs attention from the rack of onesies she was perusing.
โOh, so you care what I want now?โ she retorted, shooting me a sulky glare. Sheโd been pouting since our parenting class. Despite the instructorโs quick thinking preventing a very public argument, I knew Ella hadnโt gotten over my high-handed order regarding a hospital birth. Weโd decided to spend the afternoon shopping for baby gear; otherwise, Iโm sure she wouldnโt have agreed to my company. The stubborn creature had ignored me since our disagreement, only allowing me to touch her when required for class and barely speaking.
Now, while I considered cribs and strollers, Ella positioned herself as far away as possible without leaving my sightโa line she seemed to understand she shouldnโt cross, no matter how unhappy she was. Sighing, I crossed the small shop, looming over her. โElla, of course I care what you want. I didnโt mean to dismiss your feelings earlier, but there are some risks Iโm simply not willing to take.โ
โI just wanted to consider my options,โ Ella grumbled, crossing her arms and unintentionally pushing her breasts together. โI donโt even know that I would want a home birth; I just thought it was something to consider.โ
Dragging my gaze from her, I answered, โI understand that, and if our situation were different, I wouldnโt have a problem with a home birth, but our situation isnโt different.โ I reached for her, but she stepped back. โIf you want a water birth or a doula, we can arrange those at the hospital, but we need to be practical.โ
Ella glared, her lower lip quivering. I had a bad feeling she was about to cry, and suddenly I wished sheโd growl at me again. I couldnโt recall ever hearing such a cute noise except from puppies. I wouldnโt let her get away with it, but it had been difficult not to smile. โI donโt want the baby to be high-risk,โ she finally said, her voice husky. โIt isnโt fair.โ
โI agree,โ I said seriously, hating the idea of either of them being threatened. โBut itโs the reality, and we have to ensure you have the safest birth possible. In fact, if your blood pressure doesnโt come down by the end of the week, we need to see the doctor again.โ
Ella nodded, fighting back a hiccup. Her golden eyes shone, and I was quickly losing patience with the distance between us. โOkay.โ
โOkay,โ I repeated, ducking my head to catch her eye. โSo are we friends again? Can we kiss and make up?โ
Ella willingly came into my arms, her small, warm body tense. She snuggled into my embrace and breathed in my scent, though she didnโt completely give up her sulking. โYou better not be this bossy in the delivery room.โ
I chuckled, stroking her hair. โOh, youโre going to let me be in the delivery room?โ I asked, surprised she wanted this, even though Iโd always planned on being there.
To my surprise, Ella pulled back sharply. โYou are going to be there, arenโt you?โ
She looked so frightened by the prospect of delivering alone that my protective instincts surged. โOf course, sweet Ella. Iโm not going to let you do it aloneโeven if you hate me and try to kick me out, I wonโt leave.โ
Her racing heart slowed, but she eyed me suspiciously. โThat sounds bossy.โ
โI said I would be there, not that I wouldnโt be bossy,โ I teased, pulling her close.
โTyrant,โ she accused, nuzzling into my chest.
โTroublemaker,โ I replied, relieved we were no longer at odds. I much preferred playful disagreements to serious ones. โWe havenโt talked about baby names either,โ I said. โWe should probably do that before class. I donโt think our teacher appreciated us stealing her thunder.โ
โWe can talk about names,โ Ella agreed, content to stay in my arms, even though other customers were glancing our wayโsmiling to themselves. Oblivious, Ella yawned hugely.
โMhmm, do you want to keep shopping?โ I asked, trying to hide my amusement. โOr go home and nap?โ
โWe can keep shopping,โ she answered, making no effort to move.
โYou do know youโll have to let me go to do that, right?โ I asked, wanting nothing of the sort.
Ella blinked, as if realizing she was half asleep, leaning against me. She stepped back, smoothing her dress as she considered the cribs. โWell, what are your thoughts about names?โ
I flashed my most wolfish grin. โHow about Thor or Rex?โ
Ella gaped, not realizing I was teasing. โYou might as well call him Butch or Spike!โ she exclaimed haughtily. โHe might be a wolf, but that doesnโt mean you have to give him a dogโs name, Dominic.โ
โWell, heโll be Alpha one day, so it should be something strong,โ I replied, still smiling.
She snorted. โNames donโt make someone strongโthatโs about character and integrity.โ
โOh really?โ I challenged. โSo you think calling our son Daffodil will set him up for success?โ
She somehow managed to look down her nose at me. โI think if we call our son Daffodil, heโll redefine the word for generations to come.โ
โMaybe, but heโll also be bullied,โ I reasoned, pretending to read a stroller information sheet.
โWhich is why we canโt name him Rex,โ Ella replied firmly. โI just donโt think you should let something as arbitrary as a name decide someoneโs character.โ
โWell, thatโs where we disagree; I believe thereโs great power in names,โ I explained, now meaning my words.
She frowned pensively. โHow about Henry, for your father?โ
My teasing evaporated. โThatโs a very sweet idea,โ I conceded, pinning her with my gaze. โBut do you like the name Henry?โ
โItโs not my favorite,โ she shrugged. โBut I donโt dislike it.โ
โAnd I suppose someone who loves children as much as you doโwhoโs been trying for so longโฆ thereโs no chance you have names already picked out, right?โ I guessed, knowing the answer.
Ella flushed a delectable shade of pink, but didnโt speak.
โWell, come onโout with it,โ I encouraged.
โWhy donโt you tell me yours first?โ she suggested. โYour real ones, I mean.โ
Laughing, I agreed. โIโve always liked Damon. Then thereโs Gabriel, or Maximโฆ but my favorite is Orion.โ
โLike the hunter, from the myths?โ Ella clarified.
โNot to mention the stars,โ I replied, thinking of the constellation.
โI like that idea,โ she mused, smiling softly. โI always imagined that if I had a son, Iโd call him Rafe.โ
โRafe,โ I repeated. โYou know that means wolf, donโt you?โ
Ella stopped; I initially thought she was surprised, but when I looked at her, I froze. Her eyes were full of tears, her hand pressed to her stomach.
โSweetheart, what is it?โ I asked urgently, closing the distance.
โThe baby,โ she answered, her cheeks splitting into a smile. โHe just moved. I think he might have kicked!โ
โWhat!โ I immediately placed my hand beside hers, grinning.
โIt was when you said Rafe.โ As the name left her lips, the tiniest bump fluttered against my hand, and we were both laughing. My eyes were shining, and I pulled Ellaโs mouth to my own. โI think we just named our baby,โ I said ecstatically between kisses.
We stayed like that for a long time, repeatedly saying the name and celebrating each kick. Through our bond, I could tell he loved our laughter and joy; soon, he was kicking just to make us smile. Eventually, we gave up shopping entirely. I took Ella home and lavished her with her favorite thingsโthe self-care gifts Iโd been unable to give her after the Wild Hunt. We spent the rest of the day curled up in front of a fire, reveling in our delight. Our future was still uncertain, but right now, everything was perfect, and I wasnโt going to take a single moment for granted.